Self-Proclaimed Supermom

The Yearly Checkup

Last night we took the kiddos to their yearly checkup.  I don't even think we have been there since last year, even for a sick visit.  It is a nice doctor's office, and the kids love it because they have characters from The Little Mermaid as murals on the walls. 

We talked to the doctor about MJ and her anger, that we were very concerned.  Also concerned about the fact that Mommy has Bi-Polar and Daddy suffers from depression.  So he gave us some paperwork to do, one for me, one for Hubz, and one for the teacher, so he can get a little more insight about what is going on.  I am thankful that Hubz made MJ and I go out of the room, because she doesn't need to know anything about it right now.

Then Benny's turn.  He was such a good boy.  After all was said and done it was time for him to get two shots.  The nurse gave him the one and he just shouted, "OW!".  Then she gave him the shot in the other arm, and all we got was another, "OW!"  No tears at all.  Then he proceeds to tell the nurse, "Hey, THAT game is OVER!"  We laughed so hard.  That Benny is a character.

I usually hate taking the kids to the doctor, it is very stressful for me with all of the paperwork and signing in and what not.  Hubz took care of all of it.  It was the nicest doctor visit ever.

Agida

What is Agida?  To me its the restlessness that the meds give me.  I could be sitting on the couch talking, but my body doesn't want to sit there being still.  It drives me crazy, so I try to get grounded and be in the moment, then it goes away.

I have always wanted energy.  The coffee, the Red Bull, the Vivarin.  I have asked for more energy my entire adult life, and now that I have it, it is driving me nuts.  Go figure.  I have this Agida morning, afternoon, and evening.  I sleep fine though.

What can I do to get rid of some of this crazy new energy?  What do you think?

It's Always Something

The cable guy came to install, a week ago or so, my cable and my internet.  For some reason my DVR wasn't working.  Gee, we come to find out it is because THEY DIDN'T INSTALL A DVR, just a plain cable box.  Strike One.  But they replaced it with a new DVR and all is well.

Then a day later, my modem stops working.  Amazing.  Hubz was trying to hook up the wireless for me and it just crapped out.  Call the cable company again, oh they can't come til Thursday to bring me a new modem.  I AM GOING CRAZY, I am having internet withdrawal.  Strike Two.

I feel like the worst blogger ever, not commenting on your blogs.  I am so so sorry.  I had planned this week to get back into the swing of things within the blog world, cause I love to comment on your blogs, and of course I love when you comment on mine.  But nooooo, there always has to be something.

Moxie In The City

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Home Is Where You Make It

That keeps going on in my head over and over.  Home is where you make it.  I am trying so hard to believe that.  I am having a hard time with the 'downgrade' so to speak.

It is strange going from a house to an apartment.  Having to take a step back.  Starting over.  It is hard.  But I know in time I will feel comfortable and used to it.

That is all I have to say about that.

Welcome My New Renter (Let's Scooter Mc)

Okay, I just had to pick this one.  I just love the name, Scooter McGavin's 9th Green.  We 'Scooter Mc' around here all the time.

Scotter McSilly, Scooter Mc Nutball, Scooter McCranky, Scooter McSalty, Scooter McJerk, and the list goes on and on.  I cracked up when I saw that name, because we enjoy Scooter Mc-ing all the time.

He blogs about music, TV, sports, politics, and whatever else he deems worthy.  Go check him out.  It's a great blog!

Dialectical Behavior Therapy

You are probably saying what on earth is that?  It is a new class that I am going to be involved in.  Small group of 8, mainly women, and all of the modules that they are teaching pertain to me completely.

This is the information that was given to me:

Psychosocial Skills Training: For The Client In Need Of More Than Psychotherapy

• Enhance your sense of self
  
• Improve your communications skills
  
• Increase your personal awareness
  
• Stabilize your relationships
  
• Manage your anger
  
• Regulate your mood
  
• Increase your tolerance of distress

Individual and Group Therapy Available

The PSHDC Psychosocial Skills Training Program addresses several personality traits:

• Identity confusion
  
• Vulnerability to feelings of abandonment
  
• Inappropriate or uncontrollable anger
  
• Unstable or chaotic interpersonal relationships
  
• Chronic feelings of emptiness
  
• Impulsivity
  
• A tendency toward self-destructive behavior

Psychosocial Skills Training Involves 4 Basic Modules

Psychiatric medication management and individual therapy are coordinated with these modules where appropriate.

Module 1: Develop "Core Mindfulness" Skills

This module improves a person's capacity to focus; the observation of one's self and others; participation with greater awareness; and a person's adoption of a nonjudgmental stance. The improvement of these behaviors decreases identity confusion, diminishes feelings of emptiness and alleviates the sense of being mentally overwhelmed.

Module 2: Build "Distress Tolerance" Skills

The client learns how to temporarily relieve the overwhelming thoughts/feelings that may accompany distressing events. These effective coping strategies assist the client to reduce impulsive and self-destructive behaviors.

Module 3: Strengthen "The Regulation of Emotions" Skills

This module teaches the client how to observe and describe their emotions. This strengthens one's ability to cope and modulate intense emotions. It also teaches how to process and release painful feelings. The acquisition of these skills promotes a reduction in mood swings and excessive or inappropriate anger.

Module 4: Promote "Interpersonal Effectiveness" Skills

These skills help individuals to set priorities in interpersonal transactions. They learn how to properly attend to relationship needs and how to better value self-respect. Improving interpersonal effectiveness skills assists in decreasing one's vulnerability to abandonment and lessens the sense that all of their relationships are unstable.

This class is absolutely perfect for me.  I cannot wait.  I have alot of therapy going on, and here is the plan.

This class every week, then every other week I will see FAB, and on the off weeks Hubz and I will do couples counseling.  It is a good plan, and I am very happy with it.

My life is going to be busy, but I will be chock full of information to share with you.  Tee hee.  It works all around.

Let's Talk About Curves

Yes, do you believe it?  I am finally going to Curves.   I finally have the time.  And I am so glad.  I have had my gift certificate since May.

You work around on different resistance machines and then there is a pad in between where you can jog or dance, but something to keep you moving.  The first time I went I really felt stupid.  I don't exercise.  The most exercise I do is Dance Dance Revolution from Playstation, but that is about it.

Yesterday I went for my second time, and a very nice lady helped me whenever I had any questions and gave me some pointers.  She was so nice, and I appreciated how she made me feel as if I belonged.  It was just what I needed, because honestly, I was dreading to even go again.

Curves is fun.  I like that fact that it is all women and you are only on the machines for a very short amount of time, so it stays interesting.  No one can peek in the windows at you, and I like that too.

Me time.  Wow, what a concept.  This will be so good for me.  I hope to get pretty toned and love my body again.  The kiddos did a number on me, and hopefully this will help with my self esteem as well.

Oh What A Day (And It's Only 9:00am)

It all began with the daily waking up of the kids.  MJ was just fine, Benny on the other hand didn't want to get up, and once I dressed him in his sleep and got him out of bed, the first thing out of his mouth was, "I don't want to go to school."  I replied, "Sure you do.  School is fun!"  But no, he still didn't want to go, so I just ignored it.

The teachers send home notes as to what is happening each day of the week.  It said that today Benny would have gym class.  Usually it is on Wednesday, so I just figured there was a change.  No, apparently it was a typo, so Benny was the only one at school in his gym clothes.  Don't I feel like an ass.  And how does everyone else know that it was a typo but me?  How IS that?  I don't get it.

So the teacher said it was fine for him to wear his gym clothes today, I was thankful for that.  But then she informed me that last Friday he was corrected for something and he said to the teacher, "Girls don't tell me what to do."  WHAAAAAAAAAT?  Where did that come from.  I am a girl and I tell him what to do.  This concerns me.  So the teacher told me to leave and she dragged him screaming and crying, "I want mommy."  That just  broke my heart.

He is frustrated at school with pencil holding, writing, and whatever else.  Each day it seems the teacher tells me that he had to be corrected for something.  I will be honest, I really think that maybe he isn't ready for Kindergarten.  Maybe we should put him back in Pre-K for another year.  He is so so young for his age.  I am so concerned.

Anyone else with this sort of situation?  What did you do, and how did it turn out?

Apartment Living

It is so strange being in an apartment again.  Hubz and I had two different apartments before we moved to the house way back when.  All of the doors in the hallway opening and closing.  Strange.

I don't really hear the other people above me.  And I hope the people below me don't hear us.  The kiddos tend to get a little noisy and run around.  We are learning about indoor voices and walking.  They are getting there.

Benny keeps saying we are at a sleepover.  I don't think he gets it yet, but they seem happy and content here.  I am too, it is just very different.  I think I will feel better after a while and once all of the boxes are unpacked and all of my pictures are on the wall. 

I slept well last night.  I guess a beer will help in that department.  I have tossed and turned the past two nights, so something had to give. 

I feel good today.  Just somebody needs to buy our house already!